I think I have finally seen the writing on the wall and I am done being nice. I routinely go out of my way for the people in my life and they repay me by treating me like I was SUPPOSED to help them anyway so why should they say Thank You? Or return the favor?
When I say I am not feeling well, I have a 101 fever and can't sleep. I get: Wah. Boo Hoo.
Someone else in my family can say: Oh no, I think I forgot to unplug the iron and it may have scorched the ironing board cover. And they get: OMG! I hate when I do that, try cleaning it with...or wow you are so lucky you didn't burn anything, how scary.
It was reinforced in spades the last two days how little my well being means to most of the people I know. Over-reacting? Not really. I have a list of examples that I won't share because I don't want to offend anyone. But suffice to say, I am done. DONE. Don't ask me for anything, I am gonna be as selfish as I want to be, if I can. Might take me a while to learn not to put everyone else ahead of me but hey...why the hell not learn? No one else feels badly about not being there for others so why should I?
I am done with the tears. I am done being invisible unless someone needs something. I am just done.
This is NOT a cry for attention. It's a resolution. Good Bye, old Nett. I probably will miss you but not that much since I will be all about myself.
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I know that this happens. I see it around here all the time... No matter what I do, it's not good enough or fast enough... I wish I could just go spend a week (or month) at a hedonism resort and be all about me!
ReplyDeleteWanna go? =)
Getting away from everything sounds so selfish and so tempting. Not that anyone would notice if I did...except Bug. And even that is questionable. I wish I was kidding. I really am invisible.
ReplyDeleteI really need some selfishness right about now... Why am I not more of a mean bastard?
ReplyDeleteI was wondering the same thing. Why can't we be pricks? I am going to start practicing. Might drive to Chicago this summer...up for a visit?
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely! =)
ReplyDeleteCool...I will let you know when it is planned. Love to you and the fam!
ReplyDeleteI can't wait!
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